One thing you'll probably never see

I'm not the type of person who can just cry in front of people.I always try to keep a smile on my face and look at the brighter side of things.Don't get me wrong,I cry,I just do in when i know I'm going to be alone and no one can hear nor see me.There are some days when i just break down and cry but the house is completely FULL and on those days i turn to my handy dandy journal where i can say things to it that a best friend will never in their life get to know.I'm not sure if bottling up my emotions is a good thing, but so far it hasn't hurt me, so there's no reason for me to stop now and start crying in public